Overly overwhelmed!!

At this very moment.. I am so very confused in so many ways..

I have been thinking till a couple of strands of black hair has already turned white!

My heart is a lil bit heavy from feeling really lost.. feel as though I am standing right in the middle of a forest.. standing at not just at a Y junction but more of a W + another W junction..

My life at the moment..

Comfy in a relationship..
Ready to take it to the next level..
Can even say "I do"..
Already thinking of baby names..
Can you believe that?

Well from the last post you do know that we are planning to get a place.. Here's a couple of things a few of my friends and relatives have mentioned to me..

Dad ~ Don't buy an apartment, an apartment always depreciates in price. Get a landed property, definitely appreciate. Bukit Jalil good location, linked with many highways, and there's couple of new development coming up..

My thoughts.. don't like Bukit Jalil! Too Cina!

Mum ~ She had no comment..

Sister ~ There are plenty of other new developments.. should look around first before you decide

My thoughts.. I should look at my options before we decide.. big sum of money yar.. but the Armanee apartment is going for a really REALLY good deal considering its a corner lot! Which means we would have to decide soon.. its like shopping during sale! And we both really REALLY like the place..

Friend #1 ~ Are you guys planning to live together before marriage? Living in sin is not quite the right way. Since the both of you are already planning to buy a house together, why not try PMPC (Pre-Marital Preparatory Course), an understanding of what marriage is all about. And if you are ready then just get married.

My thoughts.. Ter, totally not into church camps.. not sure if I can coax him into doing this.. actually don't even want to try to go there.. but yeah.. definitely live together only after we get married.. like 7 days a week kinda living together.. it would be ideal of course to get married then get a place but opportunity has presented itself right now.. Can the un-ideal way be done instead?

Friend #2 ~ As much as you love him and is 100% sure that you are going to be with him forever, do not commit yourself to these kinda things. (As in commiting to buy a house together)I have seen this go wrong so many times in so many ways. If you can wait to get married, you can wait to invest, there is no rush. If you are desperate for a place together, then just rent first.

My thoughts.. I have seen people make this same mistake.. and of course at that point I told myself I would not do a silly thing like that.. but now that I am faced with the situation it seems like I am walking down that path.. well in my sister's case it turned out alright.. I do not see us not being together but things never turn out as we plan it to sometimes..

Part of me thinks that..

Yes, I should hold on.. keep my options open.. after looking at other options and you still like this Armanee place and its still open for buy.. its meant to be..

Maybe, I should just push this buying a house thing a side.. until we get married then only we do the house shopping! Save the headache for later!

F**k it.. I am going to just dive of the cliff!! Whether we drown or float we would just have to deal with the outcome later.. Your hands in mine together we shall weather through! So dramatic.. but yeah..

There is no ideal way.. or is there? Am I doing it wrong? Or is it wrong the other peoples eye? Will I regret later? or will I look back and laugh at how silly I was..

Lord, show me.. guide me.. never leave my side.. be always in my thoughts, in the words I speak.. and in my actions.. whatever plan you have for me.. guide me.. cause at this very moment.. I am stuck.. so very extremely stuck..