His Mysterious Ways..

I would say that this is just a lil' crush :) Maybe more than a lil. It is fun to have to someone to admirer.. secretly. Well its not so secret already since I kind of blurted it to a few of my buddies. Hopefully there is no harm done there. Hopefully he does not already know because it kills the whole secret thing even more..

Well the last time I had a secret crush on somebody was when I was fifteen at a church camp. That did not turn out that great because he ended finding out and to my dismay, he was all grossed out about. Definitely put me down.. effected my teenage life badly.. hehe I was kidding.. was sad for a while but that was ages ago..

Well this secret crush of mine has this alluring mystery that makes me want to know more about him.. the way he walks, the way he looks at you or say hi. The mysterious aura that emits into the air everytime he passes is so attractive. Sigh.. my mind would just start to wonder what its like to..... ok ok I starting to sound like a lunatic stalker.. I don't stalk! I just try to bum into him :) Hehe well, we will see how it goes. Would love to be his friend.. really.. just friends..

I sense that he has been through a tough time.. or is going through a tough time.. And I would love to be able help. I am a great listener.. would love to hear him out.. to be able to give him support and encouragement.. to help him through whatever is that that he is facing. I want to be somebody he can open up to.. someone he can trust. Its weird because I never felt like that for anyone before. Seeing a stranger and wanting to be a friend. Maybe its empathy I am feeling.. I don't know.

Well this is all just my presumptions. Maybe he doesn't feel like anything I described. For all I know, he is the happiest person around, has the bestest friends already. Maybe he does't want to know me. That will be fifteen years old all over again. Lets just leave this to fate ya :)